I'm cold. It's May 12th and I am cold. We've already had hot, humid and sticky days. My air conditioner is already in my bedroom window. But today I am freezing. The heat is on and my toes and hands are freezing. I'm not a summer girl, but I am longing for the sun.
Believe it or not I am still here. I miss blogging. I occasionally visit your sites and read about the goings on in your lives. Well I am back!! I need to vent, share, express....the goings on in my life.
Emily is now 5 1/2 and playing tball. I can't say she is loving it, but she is trying something new. Her graduation and dance recital are just around the corner. I can't believe this is her final month at her preschool. I am glad she stayed one more year. She has made some good friends and finally has a best friend.
The hubs is working a lot but at most times like his new(ish) job. He hasn't started at his summer/Sunday job yet- so its been nice to have a few extra Sundays with him.
I hope everyone is well. I look forward to posting again and leaving comments on your pages.
I would like to scream right now. Its only the first month of school and already I am ready to scream. Its like babysitting. And the lies.....do they really think we are dumb?
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I've been such a bad bad blogger...I have been peaking on you, sorry for not commenting.
I have been so busy with the start of school. I've also been helping out at our friend's restaurant since he is shorthanded until they close in October.
Yesterday I found a snake in my house. I almost died. I am not afraid of snakes. But seeing one in my house freaked me out. I wonder how long he was there- eeewwww
So tired lately, trying to get back into the routine of school. I'm working with the same woman directing the school again- wish I hadn't taken it. They are already driving me nuts. (especially her)
+1
I gaine a lb. Last week was hard. I fell out of my routine. I didn't track my food. My Mom put out my favorite cheese Thursday after the funeral. We had eggplant parmesan and a delicious chicken lasagna. And to boot I am getting my period. I was a hormonal mess yesterday wondering what was wrong, but then I woke up and DUH makes sense. Hoping for a bigger loss next week.
I am in a blah mood. Almost on the verge of tears. For no reason either. I need something to do. The creative part of my brain is yearning for something. I think a trip to the fabric store is in my future. All my craft/sewing supplies are in a closet so in order to use them I need to unstack them and it makes a mess. I need a craft room. We have a 3rd room, currently called Em's spare room-filled to the brim with toys. I'd love to make it a nursery. But if not just a spare bedroom for guests with crafts nicely organized. I love being a SAHM but I need something more. I am not sure what to do. Its just one of those days to question everything I guess.
Enjoy your Sunday!!!!!!!!!
Tonight is the first board meeting for Em's school...I am hoping this group of ladies works out better than last yr. We got some new faces and some oldies. But the old ones are nice sooooo? We'll see.
Tomorrow is the day for my grandfather's services. This is all becoming too routine. I hope I don't have any more funerals for a long time!
I headed to the beach up the road from me yesterday with some friends. Hoping to go there again Friday with Em and my cousin's daughter who is sleeping over tomorrow night.
Its hot today. Summer is here. I am so used to all the rain we were having that I keep forgetting to water my garden and plants. The deer jumped into my garden and ate the leaves off of Em's sunflowers and since they were in decided to mow down my zucchini plants and on their way crunched some others----EErrrrr Hello keep out cute deer ladies-----
Yesterday I headed to my Mom's for a sad gathering of what is left of my teeny tiny family. My grandfather passed away yesterday morning. He had a pacemaker put in Friday and my Mom was bringing him home yesterday. She didn't make it to the door before she needed to call 911.
My WW meetings are Monday nights at 6pm. Its the only meeting in town. But I hate weighing in at 6pm. I know it doesn't matter. But I just feel like whatever I eat that day or close to my meeting sabotages me. This is only my second weigh in so its not a problem. I just had such a good day on Tues liked how I felt and looked. I feel it, however, small. I dunno..maybe I'm just thinking about it too much. I have plenty of pts (only good thing about being as over weight as i am) so I am not really hungry. But at night I want to snack...eeeer! I just hope I can make it through this weekend without going over my pts. Any loss is still a loss right? Monday night at 6pm is so far away............
I am bored. Its gloomy and I have no fun money. The hunny gets paid tomorrow and I have some errands to run--looking forward to getting out of the house. CRAZY!!
I am in my second week of WW and doing OK. Although I don't feel like it. I was feeling in the dumps this morning and needed something but refused to snack. Got a little Ho Hum and watched some TV. But about an hour ago I jumped on the treadmill and walked for a mile/21mins. I feel better. I am now eating a late lunch 'Lean Cuisine Ravioli' YUMM!!
Grandma Ethel is doing well. She had her surgery Wed and came through ok. This morning she called my MIL to ask her where her glasses are...LOL...I guess she is the fighter we knew she was. I'll be visiting with some family on Saturday since my MIL's siblings and SIL are in town to see Et. Not a good reason for a get together but a get together none the less.
Holy Hot day!!! I need a pool.
Jim had the day off and we headed to the park and then the movies. We saw Aliens in the attic, it was cute.
I had my first weigh in for WW this evening....-3.4lbs :) I am motivated and hope to keep focused!!
On a sad note, Jim's Grandma Ethel, 87, had a heart attack last night. We were surprised! She isn't your average 87yr old. She golfs and bowls and likes to flirt with the fellas. She even told us once that she is a cougar because her fella is much (MUCH) younger! She hadn't been feeling well and now we know why. She has to have triple bi-pass surgery Wed morning--keep her in your prayers.
Its been crazy around here. I have been so busy. I have been reading but not really commenting. This week should be quieter so hopefully I'll have some fun posts.
~ I've had enough of the rain. I'm tired of seeing a million slugs a day. The damp smell-gross!
~Packets for school went out. But after the fact, found out after I made a correction to something I left something out-became a mini-issue and I wanted to beat someone! But its over and I am moving on. (Have the same partner as last yr-so I guess I can expect some bumps)
~ Swim lessons are over. In 3wks Em went from being scared of the water, to swimming without her bubble and even jumped into the deep end and swam with her instructor. I can't believe the progress- I am super proud of her! I may look into lessons at the Y this fall to keep her going. She has now added swim instructor to her list of grown up jobs.
~Switched my WW account from online to monthly pass, I am going to a meeting tomorrow night and am hoping I will see some better results. I also plan to do some walking and working out. I mean I do have a great neighborhood for walking, treadmill & universal gym in the basement (however musty it smells)--USE IT WOMAN--right?!?!?!
~ I dyed my hair today, it was way over due. I bought some on sale and I am loving the color-close to my natural (what I remember) color.
I hope everyone is doing well!!
I'm not sure what happened. I spent the afternoon at the beach with Emily and a friend. We came home hungry around 6:30pm. We decided to watch a movie (Fly Away Home) and eat dinner in front of the TV. I made mac n'cheese for Em and decided to make some flavored rice for me. I got the water and rice mixture into the pot and cooked it up. When all was done we headed downstairs.
I had the AC above the sink on in the kitchen. Into our movie some I heard a different sound. Watery sound. But I thought it was the AC-you know sometimes you hear the moisture doing its thing. Well about an hour and a half into the movie I still kept hearing that water noise. I paused the movie and headed upstairs.
S#it!! F&$%!!
There was water everywhere. The faucet it was running. Somehow it was turned on and the stopper was in the sink. I quickly threw towels all over the floor and counters. After we cleaned up the water I thought-crap- could it have gone through the floor????? I headed to the basement and it did. I had 1/2 inch of water in a huge puddle on one section of the basement. I was freaking out. UGH. I moved the treadmill which was sitting in the deepest section (hoping it still works) We still had boxes from our move, so that helped soak up most of the water.
I have NO IDEA how this happened. I joked when we first moved in that the house was haunted-lol. I know that I didn't leave the water running- I was up here for 10-15mins up here cooking after I used the faucet. So I would have noticed it. Maybe the cats? I don't know.
CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!
Today is a good day!!
Emily did excellent at swimming lessons this morning. She tried her best and she even raised her hand to go next.
I stepped on the scale for hahas and saw a loss :)
Went through some old baby clothes and felt motivated to walk and lose weight.
Looking at the babies clothes and hearing Emily say "Awww, how cute, OH thats adorable" made me think how great for her. To have a sibling for life. A friend. A playmate. But also someone new to share in the wonderful journey from pregnancy to motherhood and then some. She is just that age I think she would enjoy it (most of the time, lol)
Motivation here I come!
There she is going into the pool, without me, without a bubble or arm flote thingees. Today was her first official swim lesson. She did pretty good. She did slip near the wall and went under a bit but she was ok. But when it came to her turn to try her "freestyle arms" she said she had to go potty. So her instructer put her on the wall and she came to me. I looked everywhere and could not find a bathroom...ugh...so I took her to sqauat by the car. I told her this would be our secret. Nothing happened. I kind of thought she was scared. When we got back to the pool she floated on her back and tried the backstroke, but when it came to "freestyle arms" she said she had to pee again. My poor baby. I ordered her this, a friend of mine who has a pool uses this for her kids and they do so well. A little extra confidence. Well hers did not come in yet, I am guessing tomorrow night. One more day without a bubble.
I never took lessons as a kid. Sometimes at camp I would take lessons, but always was in the beginners group because of lack of skills. Eventually at like age 11 or so maybe older I taught myself....it just clicked. I am not a great swimmer but I can. I wish I had signed her up when she was younger... I hope she does better tomorrow.
After her lessons we went for a short walk on the boardwalk in town. It goes through White Memorial conservation its a large wildlife refuge, nature center etc... This trail goes through part of the property. The walkway is very narrow and kinda rickity so we didn't go far... heck if you cross paths with someone its a tight squeeze. But it was really pretty, we'll have to venture there again some afternoon.
I don't want to jinx us, but the sun has been a wonderful addition to my week. I did some yard work yesterday and some reading. For the first time this summer we were outside all day.
I've been struggling to stay motivated with this "life change" and decided to try ww meetings again. Just knowing someone else will know if you gained or loss seems to motivate me.
I finally slept well last night. The three nights prior I woke up around 4:30am and couldn't fall back to sleep until like 7am or so. One of those nights I almost had a mini melt down. I felt like at that moment I was too late to have another baby. I was certain that I was too old, that I didn't have enough time to lose the weight I wanted to and I would be too old to use the fertility coverage if it came to that. It was just so real, it felt like the end. But then I had a dream that someone wanted us to adopt their baby boy- I was thrilled. So who knows what my subconscious was trying to tell me.
Lately I feel like I have nothing to blog about. I took pictures the other day to post and now I've misplaced my camera. Maybe I should find that today. I am hopefully heading to the beach (shore) this week and also probably checking out the town beach (lake) and see if its worth getting a pass to. I know a lot of people who go (one of who annoys me some- when it came to school politics- but that part of our relationship is over) I know Em will have a blast. Also Emily starts swimming lessons Monday for 3 wks (there goes my sleeping in). I'm looking forward to seeing her do this, its her first time too.
We have a lot of toad visitors in my yard, but this guy startled Em tonight. Just hanging onto the garage. Sorry the picture is blurry- couldn't get a good shot in the dark carrying a ton of crap, lol. But he is cute isn't he.
